Man, I am old. Yes, I just said that. I wish when I was younger I would have known that when I got this old I would not have put my body through so much. Nowadays it takes longer for me just to stand up. I know I have had so many surgeries and well just to be lucky to be walking let a lone just to be alive but wow I hurt.
Yesterday I enjoyed the day with my husband. Well, I sorta did. I remember going to the fair with my dad and unfortunately my ex. I remember being able to go around the park without any issues. Granted I was younger and it was before I was diagnosed with cancer. It was hard yesterday. The people yesterday I wanted to just hide in the boots of Big Tex. There were so many people. Most of them should have been in school. Apparently, it was a school day. I know some of them were in the FFA. (FORMER FFA member) but sheesh some of them were rude af.
I know some of those people on scooters were going so slow it wasn’t funny. My husband and I were like, guys, come on, you have an engine under you. MOVE IT. The isles inside those businesses should be wider too. See, I am old and very salty. I wanted to smack some of those people straight.
Now today, I am in so much pain from yesterday, and I used to never get this sore.
I have seen so many doctors now I know what my dad felt when he was getting up in age. Granted, he was in his late 60’s when this started; however, I am in my early-mid 40s. He also didn’t have to put up with a harsh ex. My dad is more than likely laughing at me right now from his salt water pool in the sky.
I just have to take the advice I have seen many times from the disabled community on TT. And fight for my voice to be heard. With that said, I will be changing my care entirely over to Baylor. So far, they have done right by me and listened to me when I tell them I have something wrong and just don’t want to run tests on me or use me as a testing dummy.
Keep voicing your concern about your health, and don’t let anyone run over you. Keep chasing your dreams. Even though it might take you longer to get there, you will.
June and The Woman Who Did 